Trust

I feel its ridiculous that you can love someone so much but not be able to fully trust them even though they have given you no reason not to. Is it insecurities or just something your have? One little friend request from some girl that probably means nothing to him can drive you crazy. With no prior offenses why does this seem like the end of the world? How can you fix it if you don't know why you do it? Its really not fair to him or me. I can do everything right but this is kinda like a pest that you can't kill with a pest killer. Life is so confusing. At least if I had a playbook of what was to come I could relax now...